Dr. Who?

Here I am... Sunday, hovering on the edge of gaining two coveted letters after my name. And for all the pomp and circumstance, I struggled to muster up much of a reaction. Lame, I know. It was certainly not the groundswell of emotion that I brought to other accomplishments in my life. Perhaps it was that past graduations have also marked the transition of major friendships, the passage of time, a big step. This one caught me off guard... maybe it was taking a year off from school, graduating with a class that I did not spend years of my life with, or my understanding that I still have so far to go. In any case- while I might not have fully felt the immense pride one is supposed to feel at these events, I did have a hell of a time with my family and friends- enjoying the warmth and the wine. I appreciate their presence and continued love and support. Sustenance along the journey as I move forward.

I think some of my lack of excitement stems from my inability to believe I really deserve it. Not that I didn't work my ass off to get to this day. But I was studying ACLS (life support) algorithms today and having a healthy sense of skepticism about my abilities to do what is next.

So, I guess I return to the books, continue to study and maintain guarded optimism that I will rise to the challenges ahead. With grace, abundant humility and a healthy dose of laughter.